Borderline- Daily Object Writing – Sept 15

Sep 15th, 2009 | By admin | Category: Daily Writing
On the edge of something, just about acceptable – weighing and balancing, pros and cons, black and white decisions but borderline is mostly grey, floating just in front of consciousness not easily grasped. Grandfather clock pendulum of judgement ticking back and forth in the mind, go or not go, make it or not? All so borderline. Will the patient live?

ECG’s beep and pulse in a hospital, brain activity flat, touch and go, is anything going on? Terrible decision, life support termination – maybe another 24 hours on the borderline.

Feelings punch along a narrow channel and ping and bell the machine, flippers agitatedly clickering away trying to keep that mirror out of the gap, shooting back up to the top, paddle wheels cascade, lights rip on and off and flash – darth vader voice laughing from the distance. and then the decision is made for you as the heavy rolling globe sails right between the fliipers and a car alarm of sounds emerge from the machine.

Yeah or neah. Sometimes you have to face the facts and this time the camels back is well and truly broken, one straw to many, no more ‘get out of jails’ it’s all gone to hell, have to admit that this thing has failed. Finances at borderline, future at borderline, maybe there’s better stuff over the border, maybe the green green grass of home awaits. Overseas, a long way away, waiting for my return for my rebirth but that’s a hard decision to take, no guaranatees, so borderline if it’ll make a difference. Would love to taste the honey of success just once, to remember it and live in it but it’s always so…….

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